Description: A state of secret or disguised identity either by change of name, being, thought process, familial relationship, appearance, or other forms of altered truth in an attempt to better life’s perceived circumstances or outcomes. Outwardly, furzyth has the closest connection to the act of a chameleon through deception of others and self. The state of furzyth may be known or unknown to the person in the state. Others may recognize that another is in the state of furzyth even if they could not recognize it in themselves. Sometimes a person will deliberately pursue deception in order to be perceived as the outcome they desire only to then lose sight of who they were before.
one scholarship away from my father’s mouth whiskey and some other unknown flavor smashed against my forever (forgotten) childhood.
only two street weeks out of the thirty two until I am sixteen. no one noticed (I hope) early for work early for school trying to shower before the swim team hand dryers in the grocery store hand soap crust my braces need care.
then seventeen (I counted) other people’s couches cat sheddings and cigarettes the crumbs of other people’s midnights away from her complicit silence.
one court order away (he won’t show up) I represent myself my sister, younger lost to online predators that’s her way no witness to what will happen later but I will not be victim.
one judge to let me leave the system one day I will paint him a glorious horse dyed every hue of freedom.