In the State of Furzyth

Psychological Phenomenon

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Furzyth [fər´zɪð]
Noun (21st Century)

  1. Psychological phenomenon or concept of furzyth.
  2. Having furzyth or being in a state of #furzyth.

Description: A state of secret or disguised identity either by change of name, being, thought process, familial relationship, appearance, or other forms of altered truth in an attempt to better life’s perceived circumstances or outcomes. Outwardly, furzyth has the closest connection to the act of a chameleon through deception of others and self. The state of furzyth may be known or unknown to the person in the state. Others may recognize that another is in the state of furzyth even if they could not recognize it in themselves. Sometimes a person will deliberately pursue deception in order to be perceived as the outcome they desire only to then lose sight of who they were before.

Origin: Latin [fur] — secretive, deceptive, furtive. Hebrew [Zyth/Seth] — appointed, named, Seth.


Furzyth

A Poem

one scholarship away
from my father’s mouth
whiskey and some other 
unknown flavor

smashed against
my forever (forgotten)
childhood.

only two street weeks
out of the thirty two
until I am sixteen.
no one noticed (I hope)
early for work
early for school
trying to shower before the
swim team
hand dryers in the grocery store
hand soap crust

my braces need care.

then seventeen (I counted) 
other people’s couches
cat sheddings and cigarettes
the crumbs of other people’s 
midnights
away from her complicit
silence.

one court order away
(he won’t show up) 
I represent myself
my sister, younger
lost to online predators
that’s her way
no witness to what will 
happen later
but I will not be victim.

one judge to let me 
leave the system
one day
I will paint him
a glorious horse 
dyed every hue of freedom.


© Samantha Lazar 2019

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